Sunday, December 28, 2008

it's time

for me to stop being such a clam and SPEAK UP. to a lot of people. i don't think they're ready. i've said nothing about so many things for so long that no one is going to expect this. i have no idea what the response will be. and i don't know that i care anymore. 

i want to be done with being so afraid. God, i'm sorry, i feel like we've talked about this so much. we've beat it into the ground. fear, fear, fear. why so much fear? i don't know either, Daddy. i just know that it takes over so many times. maybe that's one of those things that i have to keep surrendering again and again. i'm weary of this, though. 

can't i just be done with this?!? 

1 comment:

JM said...

This seems like something that really stirs your emotions
I am not sure exactly what your dealing with, but I do know one thing.
sometimes the devil tries to cloud the truth of what the Lord wants us to say be it with fear or insecurity.
break free and do your thing;
and if the things you need to say or true, than they are going to stick with people but if not they will fade away.