expectations.

how can something that seems so wonderful be such torture? i simply do not know.

i decided just yesterday that i'm tired of waiting around. the opportunity was there for oh-so-long and was not seized, and now i must move on. sorry, kiddo. better luck next time.

i like new things, though. i'm happy with what i might be moving on to. and whatever happens, happens. i don't want to overthink, overanalyze, overexpect. i just want to be.

life is so interesting. it seems things are always happening, and they're never what i expect. i am glad it is that way :)

if i got what i expected, would i be happy?

not as happy as i am now.