comforting words.

I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me

I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness

I know that You have come down,

even if to write upon my heart

to remind me who You are.

i want to be in love.

i want my heart to be completely and totally his. i want to be passionate and longing for him and none other. i want to be swept away in his arms.

but there is another. i gave my heart to him and together we broke it....and still it lies in shambles, limp within my chest, aching with each faint beat.

oh God, can you make it whole again? give me a new heart, one capable of loving you how i long to. i'm terrified in saying i've spent all this time serving you, yet i don't know who you are. but i do believe you are good, and your love endures forever. so please, put a little bit of that forever love in me. without you i have nothing to give you. with your help i give all. help me, Jesus. help me, please.

i think we're going somewhere, we're on to something good here. we're gonna make it after all.

this song

came into my life at the perfect time. "seattle" by mary mary....

I lay me down tonight searching for words to say
So many doubts that fight me from calling out your name
But Lord it's me again ready for something new
Please rest upon my heart like the morning dew

Holy Spirit rain like Seattle

Overtake my life like a flood
Like California shake
What's not like you
I just want a heart like yours

Just like a painter has some colors and a brush
Upon the canvas soon a masterpiece becomes
Please take all that I am and all that I can be
Transform, renew, restore create a better me

Holy Spirit rain like Seattle
Overtake my life like a flood
Like California shake
What's not like you
I just want a heart like yours

Open up my heart

Fill me with your love
Every single part
Make me what you're made of
Take me from the start
Hold my hand in yours
Let the rain pour

Holy Spirit rain like Seattle
Overtake my life like a flood
Like California shake
What's not like you
I just want a heart like yours

growing up

is great in some ways. in others, it really bites.

everyone i know is getting married, or engaged, or finishing school and moving far far away. or just changing a lot, to where i don't feel like i know them anymore. i am sad. i just said goodbye to my mexican family and the person who has truly become, through the best and worst times this year, through everything really, my closest friend.

i know i'm not alone...but i feel very lonely.

i'm ready for school to start already.....aaahhhhh!!!

"come to me...

....all you who are weary and heavy-laden, and i will give you rest." - matthew 11:28



true story. Jesus, you kept your promise. i love you.

i have no idea

what the future holds for me. but i know who holds my future. and i LOVE him. and i trust him. he always provides for me and protects me. and he always surprises me and takes me on adventures and amazes me. so....i'm really really excited about spending the rest of my life with him.

this is my heart today.


speaking of hearts, i had a heart-to-heart with ro at work today....God just gave me words for that little boy and i know he was listening to me. i think we had a breakthrough. i am praying that things change for him here soon.

i have this feeling in my spirit that a lot of things are about to change soon. it's stirring up inside me. it's like a fire in my bones. i'm weary of holding it in; indeed, i cannot......

psalm 119:11

i have hidden your word in my heart, that i might not sin against you.


because....out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.

amen.