this song

came into my life at the perfect time. "seattle" by mary mary....

I lay me down tonight searching for words to say
So many doubts that fight me from calling out your name
But Lord it's me again ready for something new
Please rest upon my heart like the morning dew

Holy Spirit rain like Seattle

Overtake my life like a flood
Like California shake
What's not like you
I just want a heart like yours

Just like a painter has some colors and a brush
Upon the canvas soon a masterpiece becomes
Please take all that I am and all that I can be
Transform, renew, restore create a better me

Holy Spirit rain like Seattle
Overtake my life like a flood
Like California shake
What's not like you
I just want a heart like yours

Open up my heart

Fill me with your love
Every single part
Make me what you're made of
Take me from the start
Hold my hand in yours
Let the rain pour

Holy Spirit rain like Seattle
Overtake my life like a flood
Like California shake
What's not like you
I just want a heart like yours

growing up

is great in some ways. in others, it really bites.

everyone i know is getting married, or engaged, or finishing school and moving far far away. or just changing a lot, to where i don't feel like i know them anymore. i am sad. i just said goodbye to my mexican family and the person who has truly become, through the best and worst times this year, through everything really, my closest friend.

i know i'm not alone...but i feel very lonely.

i'm ready for school to start already.....aaahhhhh!!!

"come to me...

....all you who are weary and heavy-laden, and i will give you rest." - matthew 11:28



true story. Jesus, you kept your promise. i love you.

i have no idea

what the future holds for me. but i know who holds my future. and i LOVE him. and i trust him. he always provides for me and protects me. and he always surprises me and takes me on adventures and amazes me. so....i'm really really excited about spending the rest of my life with him.

this is my heart today.


speaking of hearts, i had a heart-to-heart with ro at work today....God just gave me words for that little boy and i know he was listening to me. i think we had a breakthrough. i am praying that things change for him here soon.

i have this feeling in my spirit that a lot of things are about to change soon. it's stirring up inside me. it's like a fire in my bones. i'm weary of holding it in; indeed, i cannot......

psalm 119:11

i have hidden your word in my heart, that i might not sin against you.


because....out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.

amen.

thoughts.

your love is many things to me
but fickle it is not
unlike affection others bring
yours was dearly bought
not by the doings of my hands
was your favor won
no, blood was spilt on my behalf
by a most beloved son
and when you look at my heart now
it's drenched in his suffering
and you offer me forgiveness
because with him you are pleased

i am loving.....

the cooler weather and the rain today, afternoon naps, the newest mat kearney cd, the fact that i'm about to see two friends from high school that i haven't seen in years, coffee, my mexico necklace, and how summer is winding down in the most perfect fashion this year.....

the simple things have brought me great joy today. and every good and perfect gift comes from above.....

so for that, Jesus, i just want to say: thank You. You are good.